Happy Weigh In Day! I always love this day of the week because it pushes me to be better to myself and try harder with my eating habits regardless of what the scales say. Thanks to Amy for starting it, Julie getting on board and allowing me to jump in! So I have been HORRIBLE this week just for the pure fact that I am starting a new eating plan that I have been reading about and just have not given a darn as to what I have been eating.
Plus I have been stressed with my running and then my lady friend decides to be a week late so I am panicking since I can generally give you the exact date my friend is coming. Totally threw me for a loop and I did not realize that with running, my friend can be thrown off. Well I certainly was!
Last week: 185.2 lbs
This week: 181.2 lbs
LOSS 4.0 lbs!!
Pretty flipping fabulous! I just need to get myself together so that I can continue on my journey. I have realized that I am stalling myself and my weight loss. Not because I want to gain weight or stop. It is more so that I am struggling with the realization that one day when I hit my goal weight, the compliments will stop coming along. There are people who will not know my journey and what I have struggled with and I am so proud of it. There will be a day when people do not take notice at how great I look, but to them I will just be another girl who is healthy looking and takes care of herself.
Sure that is what my goal is and what I strive to be. But I know that I am going to miss that attention that I have been getting. The attention knowing that people notice where I have been and where I am headed. I need to stop though and really get myself moving to continue. I want to inspire people to achieve their goals and I realize that right now, I am not inspiring people to achieve their goals. I am telling people it is okay to get half way, and stop but it is not. I need to stand up to myself and my struggles and tell myself I am not throwing in the towel or giving up. This journey of weight loss is not over until I am in maintenance and a whole new journey begins. This is my battle, it is half way won but just like tug of war, the strongest survive and pull that half way mark one way or another.
My goals?
Size 10 clothing
When that is won?
150 lbs
I can do think, my mind is made up. The girl scout cookies which I may am eating right now will not touch my lips again after tonight. I am a fighter and when I hit my 2 year weight loss anniversary on June 19th, I want to share with the world that I did what I thought was the impossible, beat my demons down and win that tug of war battle once and for all.
Way to go Ashley! I'm proud of both your loss AND your determination and change in mindset. I know exactly what you mean though
ReplyDeleteJulie posted an interesting link for a book, and while I haven't checked it out yet, it sounds like a great book to help with the mental aspect of weight loss
http://www.amazon.com/The-Success-System-Weight-Edition-ebook/dp/B00JJ660AA/ref=sr_sp-atf_title_1_6?ie=UTF8&qid=1396911150&sr=8-6&keywords=Jonathon+Walters
I'm late to the party, but I felt the need to pass something along...
ReplyDeleteIn this blog you say "There will be a day when people do not take notice at how great I look, but to them I will just be another girl who is healthy looking and takes care of herself." And I have to admit, I have that exact fear.
It has already stopped for me, because I have put some weight back on. My mother of course tells me I look great every time I see her, but that is what Moms are supposed to do if we aren't missing limbs or an eye this week.
But, to counter your statement, I have worked retail for a very long time, and find that I attract more bees with honey than vinegar. Never having been in a commissioned sales position, I still knew that I would be happier if my customers were, too. So, I did the only logical thing I could think of: I began to compliment people. Nothing over-the-top or obscene, but with every interaction I try and find one thing I like about the person. I hope, for your sake and mine, that you get to run into people like me when you are in your "maintain" stage of fitness and health. It's the random, little comments like "Hey, you have FABULOUS taste in shoes!" or "Wow, I LOVE your hairstyle!" that may just make it all worthwhile! :-)