To Do List- Before I am 30

I saw Kay at Best of Intentions post a list of things she wanted to do before she turned 30. I thought it was a great idea and as so many opportunities are opening for me, I thought it might be a good idea to record all the things I would like to do. I am almost 24 so that gives me a little over 6 years to complete everything on my list, which I am sure I can do.

30 by 30

1. Run a 10K
2. Run a 15K
3. Train and run a half marathon
4. Hit goal weight
5. Move out of my parents house
6. Get a full time teaching job
7. Meet significant other
8. Travel to Ireland
9. Go to Hawaii
10. Go to Arizona
11. Be in the audience of a daytime show (Done- Thanks to The Chew)
12. Go rock climbing
13. Discern becoming a Lay Marianist
14. Get my Nutrition Certification
15. Buy my own home
16. Hike at least 1/2 the trails in the state of NJ
17. Make serious contributions to RCIA
18. Become a CCD teacher
19. See a Broadway Play (Done- Newsies 1/18)
20. Run the Disney Marathon

I am leaving 21-30 open for other things that will come up in the next few years. What are some things on your list?

Silent Suffering

We all have things we struggle with in life that can be internal and external. We freely share out external struggles but the internal have us suffering silently because for whatever reason, we are unable to share and talk with others. I have struggled with this for years and finally just this past weekend, I began the process of talking about it so that I can stop my silent suffering.

My secret you ask? Binge eating. 

Now it is out for all the world to know. I am a binge eater. I have had 3 bouts of it over the past 5 years and it has come back to hit for the 3rd time just this past month. It sucks and I struggle for a long time to get it under control and move on with my life.

What does it look like for me? Basically, I eat over my calorie budget, more than I should. I cheat on anything you can imagine. When I cheat, I hide from people in the house so that I do not feel *as* guilty since no one knows what I have eaten but me. I did it this past weekend at my friends house. I had a few extra calories and wanted something sweet for dessert. So in addition to hot chocolate, I ate 1/6 apple crumb pie AND 1/6 pumpkin pie. Does not sound so bad right? Except I was shoveling it in while standing in the kitchen making sure no one heard me or saw me. 

Every time I binge eat, my mind tells me "No, do not do it!" Yet I still manage to pile in the food. I get into a mindset that I have to eat the food now or else I will never get to have it again after that point. Which seems ridiculous right? I mean, I could make brownies 2 months from now and they would still be the same. I cannot wrap my mind around it so the safest thing for me to do is eat it while it is sitting in front of me.

I do feel guilty afterwards, but not guilty enough to be active and do better the next day. January has been a month FULL of cheating. Which is the reason why I had gained about 10 lbs back but am now on the verge of losing it again. I have lost about 4 lbs in the past week with trying to be proactive with my eating.

Where do I go from here? Well, I know that I need to take it a day at a time and focus on what I am doing at the moment. I also need to plan meals so that I can have ample of them so I do not feel cheated out of eating and I need to change up what I am preparing with desserts. I have to get my will power back in check so that this issue does not consume me and that I can continue on the healthy journey I have worked so hard to be on.

It is tough, but I will get there. One day at a time, one choice at a time.

Big Training News

I decided that this year is going to be my year with exercise and trying new things. I have signed up for my 1st ever 1/2 marathon in Philadelphia. I will be running on March 30th and I cannot wait to get out there and push myself to see how far I can go. 

Having just got back from a cruise last Sunday, I jumped on the wagon and started training for the marathon. I also combined the running training with Shaun T25 to get me through the next 16 weeks. 

This past week I nailed my running schedule and I am looking forward to continuing it. So my plans for this week are as follows:

Sunday: 3 mile run

Monday: 4 mile run/Alpha Cardio

Tuesday: 4 mile run/ Alpha Total Body

Wednesday: Alpha Speed 1.0

Thursday: 3 mile run/Alpha Cardio

Friday: 4 mile run/ Alpha Lower Focus

Saturday: Alpha Ab Intervals

I also made some yummy meals for the week:

Breakfast: Broccoli Egg Muffin

Lunch: 2 Bean Vegetable Chili/ Garlic Parmesan Meatballs

Dinner: Chicken with Spinach and Tomato

Have a great week everyone!